Frustration

I failed to make myself calm today. What am I doing, why am I so frustrated. I dont know how to burn my frustration now. Feeling upset on how things going on my life. I have been telling myself to accept the truth that I being treated this way, but at this moment how I hope I can just disappear from here. I understand what I should focus now, but I just can't get myself away from this. In need of a drink, to bring me away from the reality...